It sounds easy and simple enough to be a human being, and yet so much of the time I find myself being a human ‘doing’, always on the go, getting jobs done around the house, tidying up, looking after the children, going shopping, and when I have time to relax I then think of work or reading that I could be doing.
I believe that always feeling the need to be on the go can sometimes stem from the feeling of not being good enough. Because these subconscious feelings of not being good enough are in my head, I then try to prove my worth by getting lots of things done and aiming for perfection.
I now consciously take time out of my day to just relax. During the day when I relax that is often the time that my children will want to play and because I do not have a list of things in my head of that I need to do I feel as though I can play with them for a while. When we play I am present and can enjoy the time. When I relax in the evening I ensure that I just have time to be. If that’s listening to soft music, doing some yoga, watching the television or just laying on the sofa, I have some time to connect with myself. Everyday is unique and of course some days there is more time than others, but it feels good knowing that I prioritise making time for myself.
The Anonymous Golden Child 